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“I Dreamt of You Touching Me”
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On Madness and Art: An Art Dump
There’s a strange social narrative surrounding bipolar depression, formerly known as “manic depression.” The sickness is often associated with artistic types, as many famous artists had (or are thought to have had) bipolar depression: Sylvia Plath, van Gogh, Kurt Cobain, etc. Sometimes artists themselves perpetuate the idea that the illness helps fuel their art. There’s even a very interesting book, Touched with Fire, on this subject that I really want to finish reading someday.
As a person who sometimes makes art and is also bipolar depressive, this narrative annoys the shit out of me. When I was in the hospital I journaled a lot about how frustrating and dangerous this romanticizing is. Obviously I can’t speak for everyone, and sure, it’s totally possible that the boundless energy that comes with a manic phase could result in a lot of work getting done. For me though, mania also gave me panic, paranoia, and a complete inability to focus that energy on any one thing. And the thing about mania is that you can’t have it without the depression. So, I get to go from being unable to get anything done because I’m hopped up on mania to not being able to do anything because I’m so depressed I can’t even function.
Despite the fact that sometimes mania feels good because at least it’s not depression, bipolar depression is still not a good or functional disease, and it doesn’t lend itself well to getting shit done. Any and all art I am able to create is in spite of my illness, not because of it.
During my hospital stay, I was worried that the amount of art I was churning out would somehow reinforce the idea that bipolar depression and creativity are linked. I made more art in the week and a half I was there than I have in the rest of the year combined. But being in a mental hospital is not quirky or cute or fun. The only real reason it was more conducive to creativity for me is because there was literally nothing else to do. I didn’t have my phone, there were no computers, and we had limited access to phones or televisions or even radios. From the time we woke up to an hour or two before lights out we were either in group/individual therapy or eating as a group. We spent our entire days in the group room which, as I’ve mentioned before, is the only room where we were allowed pens, pencils, and crayons. I had the time, safe space, and tools to spend entire days making art. It was a crucial aspect of my recovery and in no way motivated by my illness itself.
I’m very proud of the art I made there and am happy to share it now, knowing that it’s a sign of my recovery rather than my illness.
“Zipper Girl,” the last piece I made in the hospital
Lyrics from Tom Waits’ “9th and Hennepin”
I learned that colored pencils are fun
This isn’t as done as I want; maybe I’ll come back to it someday. Skirts are made from wallpaper.
Another Zipper Girl; she was really popular among other patients and they all wanted their own. I got really good at drawing her.
Filed under art, Health, Mental Illness, Personal
Link Dump: #78
This week’s kitty is from the People Holding Cats tumblr, and is being held by Jean-Paul Sartre, who’s deep in his work. Maybe hugging a kitty helps you concentrate on philosophy? Anyway, here are some links:
- “Famous architects dressed as their buildings, 1931.”
- Cultso’s Josh Dixon presents: “Artist Takes Every Drug Known to Man, Draws Self Portraits After Each Use.”
- “Beyond the Pale”: David Ehrlich on Scarlett Johansson’s ass in the first shot of Lost in Translation.
- Richard Brody points out that “Not Every Great Movie Has to Be Awesome.” (Love this piece.)
- A.O. Scott is a genius.
- One of my favorite recent news stories: “Father of the Year Helps Dress-Wearing Son Feel Comfortable By Putting on a Skirt Himself.”
- A video of “Kubrick // One-Point Perspective.”
- Finally, The Guardian published a list of “The 23 best film directors in the world today,” and it’s… let’s just say lacking. So Julien Allen retorted with “A response to The Guardian’s ‘Best 23 Directors in the World Today.’”
For search terms, we have the usual: “funny feminist view of sociology,” “greta garboe pussy,” and “hot girls goes grrrrr,” the latter of which sounds like an idea for a Pussy Goes Grrr spin-off blog.
Ozu/Hopper
I’ve been glancing over images from Yasujiro Ozu’s final film, An Autumn Afternoon (1962). His compositions tell all these terse, self-contained stories through line, color, and lighting—stories about middle-class life in postwar Japan, about all the pain (and incidental comedy) inherent in the very concept of “family.” Stories about disappointment, and the impossibility of happiness without first some compromise and heartbreak.
Between the placidity of Ozu’s frames and the frustrations of his characters, An Autumn Afternoon started reminding me of American painter Edward Hopper. As with Ozu, much of Hopper’s work consists of understated tragedy. Both men situate their characters in low-key milieux: modest rooms, taverns, street corners. And despite their gloomy implications, both Ozu’s swan song and Hopper’s paintings (like Chop Suey, above) abound with visual playfulness, never giving in entirely to misery.
“In the end, we spend our lives alone,” opines this drunken old man, a former schoolteacher from An Autumn Afternoon. “All alone.” Both of these artists, separated by decades and the Pacific Ocean, single out solitude as a constant of the human condition. Their figures are enshrouded by darkness, and that darkness is offset by harsh lighting elsewhere in these frames. This old man—in the twilight of his life, left with nothing but a noodle shop and a resentful daughter—is downcast, wistful, at rest. Same goes for this lonely woman in cloche and coat, pausing over a cup of coffee in Hopper’s Automat. They’ve turned their emotions inward and resigned themselves to loneliness.
Each of these shots is a study of body language, of the gestures and poses through which melancholy manifests itself. Poor Michiko (Shima Iwashita), informed that her would-be beau is already engaged, slouches silently just like the half-dressed traveler in Hopper’s Hotel Room. Their contexts are totally different: Michiko’s suppressing a wave of emotions in front of her father and brother, whereas Hopper’s subject is in the thrall of a more abstract lethargy. But they share the same hands-down, head-down posture and inscrutably blank face. Both Ozu and Hopper integrate these physical expressions of sadness into the mise-en-scène, letting the disappointment of their characters ripple out across the frame.
[Hopper paintings courtesy of “Bert Christensen’s Cyberspace Gallery.”]
Link Dump: #76
This week’s unbelievably cute kitty is Pussyfoot, best friend to the dog Marc Anthony, as created by Chuck Jones. (This particular image is from “Kiss Me Cat.”) Enormous eyes, inexpressive face, loving canine buddy… yeah, every other kitty can just go home. Pussyfoot has to be the cutest. Anyway, here are a ton of links:
- Because everyone loves accidentally sexual Golden Age comics, here are 100 panels from them.
- From Autostraddle’s Ali: “Dr. Ben Barres Knows That Misogyny in the Sciences Is Real.”
- Comics creators Mark Waid and Jeremy Rock have “4 Panels That Never Work.”
- Kathie Smith has a list of the “Best Films Directed By Women,” and it’s better than most such lists.
- Wake up with the sound of shredding money.
- Australian animator Adam Elliot’s early short “Cousin.”
- Brent Rollins remembers “The ‘Black Bart’ Craze.”
- “Our Beautiful Wickedness: On Reading Films Queerly,” a video in memory of Alexander Doty from Film Studies For Free.
- On Indiegogo: “Help Save Lakota Sioux Sacred Land!“
Not much in the way of search terms these past couple weeks, but I’m still amused by “look in side girl badey” and “www gose fozen muschi,” which seems like a severely garbled attempt to type in a URL. For what kind of website, I have no idea. “Goose frozen… muschi”?
Link Dump: #71
This week’s kitty comes from a great Movie Morlocks piece about Harry Dean Stanton. You wouldn’t think that kitty could get any cuter, but then oh my god it’s being held by Harry Dean Stanton! Sooo cute. And now, sooo many links:
- A letter from Gene Wilder about his Willy Wonka costume.
- Pixar’s 22 storytelling tips.
- Artists draw scathingly hilarious responses to Guillem March’s anatomically fucked-up Catwoman cover.
- Dear White People: an awesome-looking, tongue-in-cheek film about racism within high-end colleges. Fund this and help it get into theaters like it deserves!
- The Guardian’s Johnny Dee has the facts about Jaws.
- Toronto’s Little Island Comics has a selection of LGBT comics for kids!
- Aja Romano of The Mary Sue on how Google forced TV Tropes to remove its “rape” tropes.
- “How To Be A Reverse-Racist,” some brilliant satire by A.D Song and Mia McKenzie.
- “All cinema is fantastic!”: Marya rants about movies, a must-watch video.
- You can make cute kitty icons! (Here’s mine.)
I have a pair of bizarrely spelled search terms for you this week: “puccy steert” and “fuc ma back puss a suc ma koc.” You heard it first here, folks: “suc ma koc.”
Link Dump: #68
Oh my god, it’s Peter Lorre with two kitties on him! That’s just like the cutest thing ever. Pussy Goes Grrr’s been fairly quiet this past week, but lots of goodies soon to come: some list-tastic posts, some reviews, and of course the Queer Film Blogathon on the horizon. But for now, a few links:
- This is morbid: “The Nine Circles of Hell, As Depicted In LEGO.”
- Jay C of The Documentary Blog has a list of “Documentaries That Draw Inspiration From Genre Cinema.”
- A series of “Minimalist Studio Ghibli Movie Posters.”
- For your monster-measuring needs, here’s a “Movie monster sizes comparison chart.”
- For those of you who love gear-shifting, here’s “Just The Gear Shifting” from the Fast and the Furious movies.
- Matt Barry on “William Cameron Menzies and the Art of Production Design.”
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